May 4th was my life-day 🤍

#LaterGram ~ Photos by my sweet sis-in-law Lizzy Rose @esaucie of my Life-day/Birthday this past Saturday (May 4th) =^.^= 🤍 I had the best day ever with me, Lizzy, my bros Robbie @dmrs121923 and Micky @octobernocturne going to see my unofficial twin/boyfriend Adrian’s actor Matthew Goode in Abigail as Father (the Dracula character, cos this is based on Dracula’s Daughter from what I’ve read), and then we had tacos in the afternoon while I opened my presents from classmates of Micky’s, and then after Micky headed off to perform in his second night on stage, we watched The Last Unicorn which is an all-time childhood favourite, with this being Lizzy’s first time watching, and we were making brownies, but the vegan substitutes didn’t work out, so we paused The Last Unicorn, and went out to pick up gluten-free cakes from Big Y, which were yummy! =^.^= 🤍 One was strawberry cake (my favourite flavour is strawberry followed closely by apple and lemon), and the other was a birthday cake made of chocolate with a strong cream on top with sprinkles, ’twas as cute as ’twas yummy~~ :3 🤍 Thankies to Micky, Robbie, and Lizzy Rose as well as my imaginary Crow family and our helpers for making my 34th (thirty-fortunate) life-day the very bestest!! :3 🤍🤍🤍

p.s. there is also a video of Robbie and Lizzy Rose singing “Happy Birthday” to me before I blow out my birthday candles that dear Lizzy got me :3 🤍 which you may watch on my IG post here: https://www.instagram.com/p/C6qBf-SuO27/

One year since I dreamt of Erwin for the first time … 🤍

Commander Erwin Smith and me aka Nabi Ackerman ~ sister of Lee-vee!! @octobernocturne :3 ~ a self-indulgent illustration to mark one year (April 28th, 2023) since I first dreamt of Erwy, hehe. 🤍

That was the dream where me and him worked on a court case together, and had good rapport between one another akin to Rachel and Harvey from The Dark Knight ~ which is funny, cos we used to say, “Oh, there’s the Leon guy and Connell guy” about Levi and Erwin, cos Robbie had the Leon haircut years ago, and his author avatar works in the Knight Academy in MQ the webcomic with Connell who is our expy of Harvey from The Dark Knight and a real life neighbour we had at one point, but now Micky is Levi, and Erwin stands out on his own … unless you count Erwin being an expy of Adrian Alexander Veidt aka Ozymandias from Watchmen, and me twinning with Erwin starting with his voice actor also being born on May 4th and Adrian’s name being similar to my long-lost fictional twin brother, Alexander Adrian Amaranth, in MQ the webcomic … then there’s that. ^^;

Anyways, I’m glad I got Micky’s input on what colours would work best in the background, cos I ended up lifting a photograph he sent me recently from the art gallery in NYC, and Micky said he loves it! 🐱 🤍

(And, yesh, my hair in real life does look like Rogue from The X-Men, lololol)

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{Commander Erwin Smith (who, to me, is also Adrian Veidt aka Ozymandias since Erwin is an expy of Adrian) is my unofficial twin/boyfriend in dreams.}

Adrian’s actor Matthew Goode is (probably) Daddy Drac!! ;3

Happily excited to see that Adrian’s actor Matthew Goode (most likely) plays Dracula aka Father in the new vampyre kid movie, Abigail, based on the old Dracula’s Daughter, coming out this Friday!! 😻🥰💜

Also, dumb and silly, but makes me super happy and giddy, cos Adrian Alexander Veidt aka Ozymandias has a name like my fictional long-lost twin brother Alexander Adrian Amaranth in MQ the webcomic who has a connection to Dracula who appears in several of our stories, hehe~🤭🤍

I’m really hoping this detail on IMDB is correct as I saw ppl on FB mention tis out in a few select showings where they are so I was searching around cos nobody is officially listed for Dracula, and I’ve otherwise read Matthew Goode is in it, but in a secret role…aaaaahhhhh!! C’mere, Daddy Drac!! 😋😹💖💖💖

Happy Life-day to Adrian’s actor, Matthew Goode!

Happy Life-day to Adrian Alexander Veidt’s actor, Matthew Goode, albeit i’m a little late by a few hours … sigh ;_;

He was born on April 3rd, 1978 – twelve years older than me!  I am thankful I found Matthew Goode through Adrian who I found through Commander Erwin Smith, so it all connects in a way~  ♡

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{Commander Erwin Smith (who, to me, is also Adrian Veidt aka Ozymandias since Erwin is an expy of Adrian) is my unofficial twin/boyfriend in dreams.}

Adrian, my twin lion 🦁

The other night, I was given a lil snik of animal fruit snacks (sniks), and the first animal i pulled out was a lion! 🦁 to me, this reminded me of my dream i once had where my unofficial twin/boyfriend Adrian Alexander Veidt aka Ozymandias (after King Ramesses II, Pharaoh of Egypt) told me we were like the twin lion … when i woke up, i later looked up twin lions linked to Egypt, and saw that Aker is the sun lion, also known as the twin lions: “From Middle Kingdom onwards Aker appears as a pair of twin lions, one named Duaj (meaning “yesterday”) and the other Sefer (meaning “tomorrow”).” … i suppose i must’ve known that somewhere in my subconscious long ago and simply forgotten it … thus why Adrian said it to me in a dream … also the sun coming up for us again … like Adrian (and his expy/variant Commander Erwin Smith from Attack on Titan) calling me “Sunshine” in my dreams, before I later learnt that Ozymandias/Ramesses II so loved his first wife and primary Queen Nefertari that he gave her a lavish tomb and wrote that “the sun shines for her” … strange. O.o;

Chibi Christmas Erwy! ♡

Chibi Christmas Erwy! ♡

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Commander Erwin Smith (Adrian Veidt aka Ozymandias expy) is my unofficial twin/boyfriend in dreams. It started with me sharing a life-day with Erwy’s Japanese voice actor, then finding out he’s inspired by Adrian Alexander Veidt from Watchmen, whose name is about the same as my fictional long-lost twin brother Alexander Adrian Amaranth in MQ the webcomic, and went from there! 

To those asking about me being unfaithful to my actual husband Karasu, Erwin/Adrian isn’t canon to my imaginary world … just a fantasy and dreams, it seems … 

Kewl new official Erwy artwork :3

Erwy! ♡ My boyfriend! ♡ (I wish … Karasu would k*ll me)

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{Commander Erwin Smith (Adrian Veidt aka Ozymandias expy) is my unofficial twin/boyfriend in dreams.}

Can’t wait to see my “twin” on Christmas Day! 🎄

I am super excited to watch my unofficial twin/boyfriend Adrian’s actor Matthew Goode as C.S. Lewis in a debate with Anthony Hopkins as Sigmund Freud about the existence of God in Freud’s Last Session on Christmas Day with my brothers and sister-in-law. I am a Christian, I go to a Presbyterian church, and I am working towards Baptism, so this has greatly piqued my curiosity, this subject matter of the movie i mean, and i feel honoured getting to see my new crush in the cinema. My favourite outing might be going to the movies, if not going to the beach/being by water, although i haven’t done so regularly in many years, so movies might top it for now. ♡

Twinlore: Adrian Alexander Veidt, aka Ozymandias, from Watchmen, has about the same name as my fictional long-lost twin brother in MQ the webcomic being Alexander Adrian Amaranth, and is the inspiration for Commander Erwin Smith in Attack on Titan, whom I was already twinning with, as I share a life-day (May 4th) with his Japanese voice actor, among other coincidences/synchronicities, etc… Curiously enough, Adrian is also created by Alan Moore, whom we (being my brothers and I) have had interesting parallels between our creative writings and his before, in the form of John Constantine and our character, Leopold Florel, also inspired by Sting, and fighting against damnation for his own soul akin to John … Must be similar creative thoughtwaves.

I apologise for this description, I’m still quite ill, and my mind is a bit delirious, so I’m not writing properly as I should be … I took these screenshots of Adrian’s actor from the behind the scenes feature of Freud’s Last Session, cos Matthew Goode makes the most adorable faces, and reminds me of my sweet dreams of living as Adrian’s wife in an AU version of the Watchmen world (what’s hilarious about those dreams is I still live with depressive psychosis and have Karasu as my imaginary husband in that world too, with Adrian being that world’s “real life” husband, curiously enough…perhaps my mind training me for if it happens).

Ozymandias the horse

i met a real-life Ozymandias albeit a horse with his name. 🐎

Adrian and me ♡

My unofficial twin/boyfriend, Adrian Alexander Veidt aka Ozymandias with his personal Queen Nefertari, Alexandria Veidt (that’s me)~ 👑🐈‍⬛

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AI art prompt of me and Adrian, which I will use for art reference later on. 🎨

In my Watchmen dreams, I’m usually a childhood friend of Adrian and married with him; otherwise, he’s courting me, and I’m giving him a hard time, heh. ^^; … I fell for Adrian after finding out he inspired Commander Erwin Smith from Attack on Titan, btw! More on that below.

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So … I twin with Commander Erwin Smith as I was surprised to find out that I share a Life-day with his Japanese voice actor, Daisuke Ono, in May 4th, and even moreso when I found out he’s an expy of Adrian Alexander Veidt whom he’s inspired by from Watchmen, AND Adrian’s name is eerily similar to my fictional long-lost twin brother, Alexander Adrian Amaranth, in MQ the webcomic, among other strange synchronicities … which is even more interesting and amazing as Watchmen was written by Alan Moore, and we already had interesting parallels with our writings to his character, John Constantine, with our character, Lord Leopold Florel, so it checks out. Dunno why or what it means, but could very well just be the same creative thoughtwaves. 🤔✍🏻📝💬💭🎭🃏

Happy Life-day, Erwin! 🎂

Happy Life-day (Birthday) to my unofficial twin/boyfriend, Commander Erwin Smith! 🥳🎂🍰🧁🎁🎈🎉🎉🎉

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AI art prompt of me and Erwin, which I will use for art reference later on. 🎨

My self-insert avatar in Attack on Titan is Levi’s sister, as Micky @octobernocturne is our Levi, and although my name is Alexandria aka Sha, everyone in my AOT dreams calls me by my everyday petname given by my brothers, Nabi, hehe. (Kitty and Butterfly in Korea) 🐱🦋

I dream of being Erwin’s secret Mistress, when I’m not helping him in court cases. I didn’t want to have a crush on him, but ended up dreaming of him after Micky told me and Robbie about Erwin and Mikasa’s scarf, and we were working on a court case then ended up, ahem, ‘celebrating’ afterwards when he won 🏆 … go figure. ^^;

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I twin with Ervy as I was surprised to find out that I share a Life-day with his Japanese voice actor, Daisuke Ono, in May 4th, and even moreso when I found out he’s an expy of Adrian Alexander Veidt whom he’s inspired by from Watchmen, AND Adrian’s name is eerily similar to my fictional long-lost twin brother, Alexander Adrian Amaranth, in MQ the webcomic, among other strange synchronicities … which is even more interesting and amazing as Watchmen was written by Alan Moore, and we already had interesting parallels with our writings to his character, John Constantine, with our character, Lord Leopold Florel, so it checks out. Dunno why or what it means, but could very well just be the same creative thoughtwaves. 🤔✍🏻📝💬💭🎭🃏

What we did on the 4th of July

For the 4th of July, me and Mikau dude @octobernocturne watched all of the Watchmen Motion Comic on YouTube, cos there were no fireworks due to thunderstorms. 🎆⛈

I’m madly in love with Adrian aka Ozymandias, hehehe (thanks to finding out he inspired Commander Erwin from Attack on Titan whom I unexpectedly fell deeply in love with, with me ‘twinning’ with both blond men). 🤭💜

My favourite character is Bubastis, though; Adrian’s genetically made lynx (we say this is Nabi~that’s me btw, cos Nabi is all kitties, and all Nabi are Nabi, but there is no one Nabi, mewww). 🐱🐅

Nabs in Karnak

Nabi running in Adrian’s greenhouse glass globe at Karnak. 🦋🌺🤍💛💜

His Sunshine 💛

twin.

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edit: I accidentally entered my favourite Queen song by Deacy, “You’re My Best Friend”, while fumbling to pick up my phone again cos I keep dropping it.

Interesting coincidence as I NEED comfort right now as I readjust to my medication while suffering withdrawal and mood swings (hyper happy and then upset and back every other minute), so Micky @OctoberNocturne (jokingly) says Adrian is comforting me cos I just said I need comfort right now …

Also super stunned to hear Freddie sing “You’re My Sunshine” during this segment cos that’s what Adrian/Erwin calls me in my dreams and daydreams … and weirdly enough that is similar to something his namesake, Ozymandias aka Ramses II, said about his favourite wife, Queen Nefertari (“the sun shines for her”) … lots of fluffy bunny syndrome going on, but its a cute kinda silly comfort. 💛

p.s. also that gold heart (“heart of gold”) keeps popping up on my phone when writing about Erwin/Adrian. 😮

Twinning

Found this comparison of Adrian and Erwin who is inspired by Adrian. I’m madly in love with both. 🥰

I didn’t want to be, but realised later I was. I remember thinking “I really don’t want to have a crush on this guy” during a certain scene of Attack on Titan, and pushed it down for a while until for some reason Micky @octobernocturne telling me and Robi @timewillcrawl94 about the skarf incident audio drama resulted in me dreaming about Erwin, then after realizing I share a birthday with his Japanese voice actor, I’ve kinda just been twinning with him a lot, like … he’s inspired by Adrian Alexander Veidt whose name is very, very similar to my fictional twin brother Alexander Adrian Amaranth from one version of MQ (our main webcomic series), then an Animal Crossing neighbor randomly gave me a steampunk hat at the same time I had Erwin in his steampunk outfit on my Facebook cover photo. Weird things like that.

My imaginary SO Karasu from Yu Yu Hakusho is extremely jealous and this is bringing out his super possessive streak, but, like, these guys aren’t in my imaginary world? C’mon, Crow. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Nabimandias

Dude inspired Erwin from Attack on Titan. Weirdly enough has almost the same name as a character I made up to be my fictional twin brother in MQ the webcomic, which was Alexander Adrian Amaranth, and this guy’s name is Adrian Alexander Veidt (which is double weird considering I just shared a birthday with Erwin’s voice actor, so was already “twinning” with him). Dude. How? Oh. He was created by Alan Moore. Same guy who made John Constantine, and our vampyre character Leopold Florel already weirdly parallels John. Checks out. Synchronicity and such. Guess we’re all on the same chaos magick creative thought wavelengths … but why? 🤔 I tend to not ponder on these things anymore. I just accept them.

… Oh, and Mikau dude @octobernocturne calls me Nabimandias now, ROFL 🤣