Orangey Rose in it’s new home 🍊🥀

I placed the lovely orange rose 🍊🥀 I got from Mikau dude @octobernocturne for women’s day in my old Bucky Barnes tall cup 🥤 …tis actually all Civil War, but I picked it out at FYE in the mall cos I was in an imaginary relationship with Steven, who was originally inspired by Android 17, and also our Bucky (who others also came to compare and associate with 17). 🥰 But, yea, I was pretty happy to find one Bucky item that trip with our anniversary coming up…February 22nd…the next day I’d start rewatching Yu Yu Hakusho, and eventually find my way to my now imaginary husband, Karasu, hahaha (laughs in sillybird)…but tis okays, Steven/17 is now one of our helpers with our Little Crow Goblins, along with Kurama. (Sailor Mars represents me next to Karasu, as she is my kindred spirit, still wearing crowns 👑 from my graduation party 🥳 and Pichi there with Karasu is also me, as I used to have a Princess Peach dream avatar…I shape-shift in my dreams sometimes…although I was always Daisy, but also became Pichi when I went by Chibi Pichi online for a time, and cos I was a blondie when me and my Crowman got together. Dee! 😋) and Suguru Geto who is also Karasu to me, cos…i used to see fanart of him and an OC, and i thought they looked like Karasu and me, so that’s why i even got into Jujutsu Kaisen in the first place! ^^;

Rest in peace, Akira Toriyama-sensei… 🙇🏻‍♀️🙏🏻

Rest in peace, Akira Toriyama-sensei… 🙇🏻‍♀️🙏🏻

Thankyou for my first imaginary boyfriend, Android 17 … Lapis … who is Steven in MQ and our lives. ♡

Akira Toriyama-sensei passed away st 68 from acute subdural hematoma … so devastating. 😰

My surprise graduation party; part I. 🥳

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My surprise graduation party; part I. 🥳

I graduated from six weeks of IOP on Boxing Day (December 26th), my teacher Maggie gave me a box to choose a seashell or stone to remember my time there by … I chose a rose quartz, my favourite gemstone♡

Robbie @blackangelwhosees and Lizzy Rose @esaucie promised me they would help celebrate my very first graduation ever with me, and I thought it would be a simple little gathering with gluten free cupcakes … so I was really, really surprised when I came home from a sibling date with Micky @octobernocturne to a really, really beautiful surprise party themed in white-and-pink with our friends Sierra and Savannah @happywarrior59 there, too! 🙀🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍🩷🤍

They were playing Billy Joel on the vinyl as we came home, and there were a lot of sniks!! 😋 And I got pink roses, too!! 🙀 I love getting flowers more than anything!! 🥰 Lizzy Rose gave me a single rose as well, saying, “A rose from a Rose!” – Lizzy’s middle name is really Rose, so that was adorbs🌹

All of our lil animal buddy stuffies had lil party hats on, too! =^w^= ♡ I brought my plushies of me (Sailor Mars), my husband Karasu, and Android 17/Steven out to celebrate, too. I woulda gotten Kurama, but I forgot where I put him (I found him the next day when I remembered), so … me, my Hubs, and our helpers, cos them and my Little Crow Goblins helped me thru IOP (and life) a whole lot♡ I also changed into my Sailor Mars skater dress to feel oh-so-fancy~ :3 ♡

Everyone made me feel very, very special and loved … 🥹 Lizzy Rose also made an amazing cake with some help from Robbie🎂, chocolate with pink icing making hearts, a hem around the cake, and words on top spelling out “Congrats, Sha!” on it! =^o^= ♡

I also got everyone to sign one of the pink plates (I’ll post in another pic) to remember this night, kinda like a guestbook of memories♡ Robbie also got me some gifts, a cross that is a nightlight, one of his button-up shirts he knows I love a lot, and a Gamer’s Level Up pop-up stand, super kewl~~ >:3 ♡♡♡

We also got pizzas, with me getting my very own cheese pizza all to myself!! Hehe, that made Nabs(me) happy indeedy! 🍕😋

I thank God for my loved ones!

{ I did upload a couple of reels to my original cross-posts on IG and FB, so visit my IG post to see them included: https://www.instagram.com/p/C1vcwkPMmLB/ }

Happy Mew Year from my family and helpers ♡

Happy Mew Year from Sha, Karasu, the Little Crow Goblins, and our helpers, Kurama and Steven (Android 17). 🥳🎈🎉🎊🤍🦄💕🎎🧧🍺🍻🥂💣💥🍒💋

17-kun art for me ~ :3 ♡

Artwork for me by artgremlindraws of my first imaginary boyfriend and husband in The Sims ♡

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shayurikarasu asked:
Hi! me again, would you be up to drawing Android 17 and/or Sailor Mars? :3

artgremlindraws answered:
Sure! I used to have such a big crush on 17 I thought he was so cool lol

(my reply)
same here! and i still do! =^w^= ♡ thanks sho much, 17-kun looks great! :3 ♡

Happy Halloweenie 🎃

Happy Halloweenie 🎃

Profile picture is of my husband Karasu my Immortal King, and my cover photo are dollies of Steven as the Mad Hatter, me and Micky as Juliet and Tybalt Capulet, and Amy-Belle who is a real vampyress, created by Micky @octobernocturne in 2017.

{ prompt } what’s something most people don’t know about you?

What’s something most people don’t know about you?

I pseudo-hallucinate fictional characters, like … I have my own imaginary world, that transcends dreams to daydreams to fantasies to my everyday life with children with my husband, Karasu, and our helpers, Steven/Android 17, and Kurama. I mostly hear their voices, feel their presences, their touches, them walking around, kids climbing into bed to cuddle, their scents, my husband’s kiss and taste, those things. ♡ I sometimes see them too, but usually just glimpses of them going by, leaning near me, or their energy as they make a sudden movement, and moreso in my mind’s eye. While I am able to hear them, I strangely can’t always hear them clearly, so I’m not always sure what they’re saying, even when I ask, “what did you say?” Aaaaa, go figure ^^;

Update on Musing About Love v.2

L-R: Leopold Florel (vampyre) / Karasu/Sakurai Tsubasa (Karasu-Tengu/Crow Goblin) / Sha Amaranth (me as a cartoon character) / Steven Gayle (he’s just Steven) / Barley Wood (half-elf and human)

(Aug. 15th, 2022)
I edited Sha and Barley’s hair to how I want them to appear in the canon story of our upcoming main webcomic series – Sha is going to have bronde hair now, and Barley will have auburn hair.

I have played around with Sha having bronde hair before, such as her putting in different coloured hairdyes over the blonde parts in some recent artwork. It is what I want to do with my hair, again. I had bronde hair for a while, but ended up dying it black (again) in 2020 to fit in with my Goth brothers and their Goth girlfriends at the time – silly me. ^^;

(This is what damaged my hair on the final straw, as I couldn’t get it to take colour or lighten much after this, thus why I cut my hair so short recently … so I can grow it out and hope it will recover itself while I take care of it the best I can.)

(Sept. 26th, 2023)
Edit: I changed my/Sha’s hair to have blonde+green in it to match Tealight Stories theme colours, and changed the outfit back to black from pink to match my original outfit’s design.

Belated: Happy Labor Day!

Happy Labor Day. 🧺

At picnic with Micky @octobernocturne and his friends. My imaginary husband Karasu on my badge, keychain, and I’m wearing his official earrings too. Him and our Little Crow Goblins and our helpers here in my head. 🥰

Had apple cider that tastes like apple juice, and tried pumpkin coffee cake, which is good; I need the recipe – thankyou, Savannah @happywarrior59 who made it for Micky and me. ☺

This video will change how you see Jean

“If you lock yourself inside your own world shielded from the real world, some day harsh reality will come in from outside.”

~ Hajime Isayama { creator of Attack on Titan }

Link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wtuyy15wCa8&si=0Pyl6gx_UexC6crs

Jean Kirstein: The Most Inspirational Character in Attack on Titan

I love Jean for how human and courageous he is in spite of fear … he inspires me greatly. 🥺♡

Link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_M9R_MDSfI&si=hX66CEBI1-ww98nu

This reminds me of a recent microdream

These two look like me and Commander Erwin in a recent microdream I had of us getting married in an AU future that was supposed to be set in 2027. 😯

Karasu-chan, our Crow Goblins, and our helpers (Steven aka Android 17 and Kurama) were there. My groom Erwin was asking about my first husband Karasu, who crossed his arms nonchalantly while pretending to look interested up at the trees as if he didn’t notice us talking about him. I said Karasu was over me I think, and mostly just following our helper, Kurama, around all the time while trying his old tricks to make me jealous by saying he met a hot nurse through his doctor, which everyone knew wasn’t true, as the Crow likes to tell tall tales. Sigh. 🤷🏻‍♀️

We were getting married on a pleasant, cool sunny day with clouds in the sky, in my dream apple orchard surrounded by my various flower gardens. Erwin didn’t have his suit jacket on, and had on a white button-up shirt and tie instead of this outfit, and I didn’t wear a veil, but did wear a simple Summer dress, however, we did look like this pair for the most part. 🤵🏼‍♂️💐👰🏻

Happy belated Independence Day ☆

{ earlier tonight ☆ I’m home now }

I am at the belated 4th of July fireworks with my Bro, Mikau dude @octobernocturne and my imaginary SO, Karasu, and our Little Crow Goblins, as well as our helpers, Steven/17 and Kurama. 🎆🎇🧨

I an enough. 🤍

My favourite affirmation: “I am enough.” ~ just as my boy Android 17 says word for word in the original Japanese version of DragonBall Super. 🐉💚

I was super sad they didn’t translate it the same in English. They changed it to something about him being an one man army. I also was sad they completely changed the joke with his niece Marron about his age being 17 into a weird one about his least favourite animal being humans. 🙄

Happy 5th Life-day to my Crow Goblin #3!

Happy 5th Life-day to the third Crow Goblin of my first set of triplets! :3 ♡

My big boy is a wonderful, kind and affectionate child ever since he was born. Like his siblings, he is so artsy and creative! He is my one boy who is growing out his long black hair, and looks most like Daddy cos of this alongside his triplet sister who is a blondie and has Daddy’s sweet smile and eyes to a T. ♡

I talked with my birthday boy about what would he like, and remembered he likes my crush, Commander Erwin, and wanted to meet him, although he changed his mind after Daddy was upset about it. I got my son to admit he still likes Erwin. My son asked for an autograph, so I decided to try that. I dreamt of Commander Erwin being happy to comply, hehe. Cute dream (in that dream I was “world hopping” or something weird like that, I still haven’t figured out how that works – dream logic), and it made my son happy to receive a personalised message with the Commander’s signature and autograph. ☺🧧

Then I dreamt of a big birthday party, which included my first daughter from a past relationship I had with my friend Loki, who was there with his wife, Sigyn, who is also our friend. These two helped take care of the triplets when they were first born in 2018. Kurama and Steven/Android 17 are our constant daily helpers though, being the kids’ de facto uncles now. Sometimes their Auntie Ruka comes around, too! :3 ♡

Karasu makes the best Daddy ever, and I love him everyday for being a great father. =^w^= ♡

I hope my kids have great birthdays, holidays, special occasions, and make the most of everyday as it were as will I. They inspire me to live!! :3 ♡♡♡

🖤🐦‍⬛×🕊🤍

Nabi’s Lookalikes

Two lookalikes of mine with the hairstyle I have at the moment, as I’m growing my hair out. :3

Nat from The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild who is looking for Hearty Truffles with her sister Meghyn (ironically her name is similar to one of my shadow self’s names ((aka my “shadow sister” as Micky calls them)) being a “past life” character, Meg aka Maggie, and looks like one of my/her variants, ie. Karasu’s “ex”).

And a lady from Attack on Titan who registers the kids, which makes me happy cos my brothers and I roleplay AOT together. Of course, I dream and daydream about it, too. =^×^= ♡

In Zelda RPs from our teens, and in our AOT RPs, I’m with the courageous blond hero often clad in green – Link (inspiration for Barley*) and Commander Erwin … although I’m also a cougar for Jean (Steven guy*) and Reiner (Milton guy*), ROFL 🙃

* Barley, Steven and Milton from our upcoming webcomic, MQ. My boyfriends in MQ. 🙃

Us after you kept liking all my stories <3

Since he’s the Steven guy, I came to like Jean! =^.^= ♡

I thought this meme post looked like me and him, hilariously enough. 😜

I took the screenshot of Jean in the circle. 🔴

my blushy face ♡

me when i see my Hubs Karasu and other times my first boyfriend Steven / Android 17 ♡ @steven_juunanagou

Photos 📸 Valentine’s Day Outing ❤

🥀🐈‍⬛ Happy (early) Saint Valentine’s Day! 💕 🐈‍⬛🥀

Tomorrow is also one of my kid’s bdays in my imaginary world! 🥳🎂🎁🎈🎉

I wuv spontaneity! 😋

Brothers and I randomly decided to go out tonight – celebrate Valentine’s early as the 3 Musketeers as everyone always called us. 🐈‍⬛🦥🐕

Micky @octobernocturne took the first two pics. He has serious orange cat energy in the second pic, lol. 🐈

Rob @timewillcrawl94 is in a later pic in my slideshow.

We got cheese pizza 🍕, drinkies (orange sodar for moi) 🍊🥤, and had chips when we got home. 😋

My imaginary SO, our children, and our helpers were there too. ☺💕

I noticed my first boyfriend Steven/Android 17 @steven_juunanagou in particular, and my new figurine of him features in the slide with the chips too, lol. I’ll get a better pic of him laters, baby. 😋

Gamer score

My gamer score is 27. 🙃

Outta these games, I really really wish I coulda marked Dragon Quest – another one illustrated by DragonBall’s Akira Toriyama (he did Chrono Trigger series)! It stars a kid who looks like Android 17, so I guess he’s Steven or Steven’s son, Steve J. ☺

My most favourite game series are Soul Calibur, The Legend of Zelda, Animal Crossing, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, Castlevania, and Tekken, out of the ones listed here. Oh, and The Sims, although it feels like it falls into my imaginary world, LOL! So does Animal Crossing – I built my house in ACNH based around my ever growing Crow family with my imaginary Hubs, Karasu♡♡♡♡♡

Happy New Year’s Eve (ACNH edition)

Happy New Year’s Eve. 🎊🎉🎎🧧🎆🎇✨

Think I’m too sleppy to stay up til midnight … my SO Karasu can kiss me in my dreams tonight, for our New Year’s Eve kiss~ 💋✨🎇💖🥂🍾🍷🍸🥤🥃

Ofc I got the 17 on purpose, LOL! As a nod to my first boyfriend. 😋 He helps out with my children as does Kurama 🦊 and occasionally Auntie Ruka👩🏻‍🦰, who was Karasu’s FWB during our open marriage (we’re exclusive again). I am grateful for their support, and treating our children well! 🙇🏻‍♀️

OC Q&A: “Do you as the author have a set of song lyrics that you associate particularly with your character? When did you make the connection? “

“Do you as the author have a set of song lyrics that you associate particularly with your character? When did you make the connection?”
(Question by characterization-queries on Tumblr.)

Oh, yesh – LOTS! ^^;

Most of them were made when I was a teenager and in my early to mid 20s.

Like, my own webcomic character, Sha Pris Amaranth aka Shadow, for example – her theme songs are “Away From Me” by Evanescence, “Gotta Get Away” by The Offspring, and “Stand My Ground” by Within Temptation. Her love styles are “Anything For You” and “Surrender” both by Evanescence. (She shares these songs with her past life, Jung Sha-Mina aka Kagemitsu, btw, since they’re both part of my innermost self.)

Her Hubby at one point, Leopold Florel’s song is “Every Breath You Take” by The Police. He’s possessive, and it influences her to become possessive with later lovers (this being based on his inspiration, Raphael Sorel from Soul Calibur, who influenced me much in the same way – hence, “Surrender” being our love style song).

Her first boyfriend and fiancé, Steven Gayle, has a lot of Tommy Shaw theme songs, LOL! Inspired by Android 17’s connection to Styx and Tommy Shaw in our heads (“Man in the Wilderness” was his theme song on Juunanagou’s Temple, for example).

I wrote a songfic based on “Haunted” by Evanescence to describe Kagemitsu’s feelings for her first master (before Yoshimitsu), when she was still a Soul Calibur fanfic character. Another songfic I wrote later on in my 20s was based on “It’s Just The Rain” by Journey for Christian Amaranth (my character’s brother) and Judy Aveil. Their dynamic is similar to Leon S. Kennedy and Ada Wong from Resident Evil, or even Batman and Catwoman from DC Comics.

“If We Try” by Don McLean describes the innocence of Viktor Amaranth (my character’s brother) and his feelings for Mitchi Applewaite, who was my first created character actually, going back to 1998 – while “Kiss Me Hello” by Tommy Shaw is Viktor’s feelings about Amy-Belle Florel, and her vampyric sway over him.

I have several playlists dedicated to our characters from our stories on my YouTube channel – there’s so much inspiration in music! 😊

Decorating with my own art

“Do you decorate with your own artwork?” – Question by deviantART

Yesh – a print of Sara x James from our RPG that’s being adapted into a graphic novel webcomic, and Steven x Sha from our upcoming graphic novel webcomic in a calendar, on the (slanted) wall above my laptop and tables. We’re on the third floor, so … slanted walls. ^^;

In the rain

I’m gonna paste from my blurb on this from the WIP I had posted for Steven’s birthday a while back:

“So, we have Dr. Crow looming over Sha who sees him, and Steven who can’t see him. Sha thinks he’s part of her hallucinations related to her anxiety disorder (chronic PTSD). There’s more to the Crow than that, however – but that would be spoilers for our webcomic (upcoming). Dr. Crow is a homage to my imaginary SO, Karasu from Yu Yu Hakusho. Sha is my self-insert original character, and the first of several I have thanks to being a roleplayer. Steven is my/her first boyfriend, initially based on Android 17 from DragonBall Z.”

Thank you, Micky, for drawing the outline for Dr. Crow’s pose which helped me out a whole lot!!

Musing About Love

My naïve SI, Sha Pris Amaranth, in the middle musing about the four guys she has been in a relationship with at different points in her fairly young life.

For those who are unfamiliar with our characters, they are (from left): Lord Leopold Florel, a proud vampyre – Tsubasa “Eric” Hoshino (aka Dr. Crow), a mysterious karasu tengu (which roughly translates to “crow goblin” in English) – Steven Gayle, a cool guy (he’s just an eccentric human, okay?) – and Bartholomew “Barley” Wood, a courageous elven-human hybrid.

As of right now, I consider these relationships still part of the canon storyline we’re going with. Sha does have romantic ties with/crushes on other characters, but they don’t develop into serious relationships like these four do, if into anything at all! ^^;

Artist’s notes: I’ve (barely) been working on this, on and off, since February … it was originally intended as a Valentine’s Day piece, but, y’know … life.

Bonus trivia: The colours they’re wearing are, at present, my favourite colours – Snow White🤍, raven black🖤, pastel pink🌸, purple💜, dark red🩸, forest green🌱, and June blue💙!

Attack of the clones!! (Crush edition, LOL!)

So, two people online compared our OC Steven (originally inspired by Android 17) to Yumichika from Bleach, who I have seen a pic of before, and my imaginary SO Karasu to Takumi from Nana, which I read in Shojo Beat as a teenager (I remember him – the sweet Nana’s abusive husband) – pretty ironic as I was interested in getting back into Nana recently as I was looking into it on Facebook and such, before this friend made the comparison, LOL! ^^;

FYI: Nana actually reminds me of Micky @octobernocturne who loves the rockstar Nana, and my friend Natalus aka Nana @natus.insensatus who was nicknamed after the two Nanas. ♡

(I’m biased, and seeing a lot of Atsushi Sakurai and Lucifard in Takumi, too.)

Edit: Based on the expressions on both of my brothers’ faces, I knew what they were thinking when I mentioned that Karasu was compared to Nana’s abusive husband. Micky replied to my remark on their faces with, “Nana’s? Or Nabi’s?” 🙄

Nabi is my nickname btw. And, yesh, Karasu is my abusive husband – I won’t deny it… But he can be good, too! 🥺

Collab with Matt – Set 1

Better viewed on deviantART: https://www.deviantart.com/tealightstories/art/Collab-with-Matt-Set1-922636971

So, for my art music video collab with my best friend, Matty aka AltoonaYourPiano on YouTube, I drew several of our original characters to be featured in the story.

This first set features Dr. Crow (aka Tsubasa Hoshino, who I call Eric after The Crow with Brandon Lee) whom is a homage to my imaginary SO, Karasu from Yu Yu Hakusho as we know him (FYI: I hallucinate fictional characters and have creative lucid dreams, which is both a blessing and a curse, LOL!) with some nods to my other villainous crushes I compare my SO to, being Dr. Kiriko from Black Jack, and Vicious from Cowboy Bebop; as well as our original characters, Steven James Gayle (and, yesh, he was originally inspired by Android 17 from DBZ), and me as a cartoon character (aka Sha Pris Amaranth), who are both cosplaying Funky Kong and Candy Kong from the Donkey Kong video games (just change “Candy” on the tee to “Nabi” which is one of my nicknames) with hints of our kindred spirits Hong Yun-seong and Seong Mi-Na from Soul Calibur here, LOL! Sha normally wears her hair like Mi-Na anyhow (especially the high braided ponytail in SCIV), seeing as Mi-Na is my kindred spirit and inspiration. I wanna grow my hair out and wear it like hers again in RL, too!! >o<

Here’s the link to our art music video collab celebrating both our 20+ years of friendship and Matty’s YouTube music channel hitting the ten year mark today: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=–2JfUfYPR0

He covers some basic history and flashbacks of his channel for the first 15-ish minutes, then introduces his original characters (along with one of ours being Kaye drawn by Matty), and then deets covering our lifelong friendship come in at about 24-ish minutes, with my art and Rob’s art coming in after that with some commentary by our characters; supervised by us too (poor Crow’s line was omitted when Matty had to re-edit the video, but this is what Crow had to say about the celebration: “Congratulations on your friendship! May it prosper like us.” My imaginary SO, Karasu, came up with his line, of course! >:3 YESH, I let my imaginary friends write the characters based on them!! LOL!! ^O^) 

P.S. The background is by my bestie, Matty!! 😀 Also, read my pinned comment for more fun deets on YouTube!! >:3

WIP Crow Sha Steven Rain

So, we have Dr. Crow looming over Sha who sees him, and Steven who can’t see him. Sha thinks he’s part of her hallucinations related to her anxiety disorder (chronic PTSD). There’s more to the Crow than that, however – but that would be spoilers for our webcomic (upcoming). Dr. Crow is a homage to my imaginary SO, Karasu from Yu Yu Hakusho. Sha is my self-insert original character, and the first of several I have thanks to being a roleplayer. Steven is my/her first boyfriend, intiially based on Android 17 from DragonBall Z. This is a WIP, which I’m posting cos I said I would post it for Steven’s birthday today (June 4th) … as you can see, I didn’t finish it yet. I’m really struggling with all aspects of my health and fatigue, thus the delays. I have a backlog of other WIPs, too.

Thank you, Micky, for drawing the outline for Dr. Crow’s pose which helped me out a whole lot!!

2/22/2022: 18th Wedding Anniversary with 17

On February 22nd, 2004, I married Android 17 from DragonBall in The Sims 1. ♡ (Or, well, basically my self-insert original character did, named Sha (my nickname), aka Android 29, or Nijuukyuu, since me and my girlies all called 17 by his Japanese name, Juunanagou, back then, so I/she had to match him, lol.)

We got married in his backyard, wearing these outfits. I chose white carnations, being my personal favourite flowers, for my/her wedding bouquet. ♡

17 and 29 are the prototype for Steven Gayle and Sha Amaranth in our original (upcoming) Gothic/Dark Fantasy webcomic; you can check out art and stories related to it over at TealightStories – oh, and fun fact: 17/Steven is literally the only man I’ve ever married in any Sims game! And I’ve been playing The Sims games for years. ^///^ ♡♡♡♡♡

I’d choose you

I had a rough time choosing which of my SI Sha’s lovers to draw her with, but after dreaming about Steven/Android 17 yesterday, I decided to go with him being my/her first boyfriend. ♡ 

I’ve featured artwork with this description before, of Sha x Steven that is, but this is the first time I’ve written it on an actual art piece within it. I wish I knew the source – I love it though, and it certainly matches the love we/these two have. ♡

For the PaperDemon Art RPG Biweekly Challenge: “#17 Show your character flirting or expressing affection for another OC.”